Wednesday, January 31, 2024

 Dear Cherished Interested’s,                                                                                         January 31st, 2024

Vumilia, a now grown and college attending daughter of the Children’s Village, has just left with six of her fellows from college.  They were here for Vumilia’s birthday which meant a cake and bottles of soda. 

It also meant hymns from the small yellow TENZA ZA ROHONI.

These are Business Administration, Law, and IT students and yet, here, hymns really relaxed them all.  They had permission to laugh at our attempts at local language and permission to sing and permission to pick the music.

They got stuffed with cake.  Vumilia left two pieces for the two women who help us again on Friday and took the cake box full of pieces on paper towels to share across campus on their way to their hostels.

Vumilia was head student of her Business Administration classes last year getting an award at the beginning of the semester.  We were in the right place at the right time to witness her getting the award. 

She didn’t know about the award ahead of time.  That was soo fun.  Almost as much fun as having them all come eat cake and drink a bottle of soda and sing hymns.

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The Children’s Village in Nkoaranga, where we have been serving, in one way or another since our first breakfast in Tanzania, has been grown around a woman who has been caring for other people's children, along with her own, for well over thirty years.  She is a Mama Mchungaji.  Her husband is now a retired Mchungaji(pastor). 

An amazing thing has happened since leaving classes.  Three Sundays in a row now anywhere from one to four of my former classmates have wanted to come along on our Sundays.  After English service we come back to the house and gather whoever wants to go to The Children’s Village.  After Sunday School and mini-worship, with working Mama’s preparing food for the Village, we have gone twice to another orphanage.

That other orphanage is Mosses Confort Home.  Yes it is spelled that way and it now has a website.

https://mossesconfort.or.tz  It is still English, only it is East African English.  Like how Midwest English was different from Northeast English and Gulf coast English not too many years ago.

When we first found them, Moses confort home, had no roof.  They have walls, large chicken coup, roofs, kitchen, toilet and more children where they are than at the Children’s Village.  This place happened because of yet another bibi{grandmother} who refused no child.  She is wearing the same dress today as she has been wearing for the two years we have known her.  Whatever we have been able to spare, she has multiplied into housing and food for little ones.

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Because students from the theology school have been coming and participating in our Sunday activities, we visited with the head mama of The Children’s Village and her retired Mchungaji husband in their home, the Sunday before last in the evening.

There I told them about my problems with University.  I also told them about the beautiful happenstance of students / Wachingaji{pastors} from the theology program coming with us to The Children’s Village.  I also asked the head Mama for permission to continue bringing them.

Hamna Shida Van.  No problem Vern.  They fed us and prayed for us and I am sure, like so many, are trying to scheme a way that we can afford to stay and pour ourselves out here like we have. 

This is a place quite fundamentally without financial resource.  Nearly no one has. 

Also this is a place with lots of death.  One former classmate and one former professor have had sisters-in-law die in the last two weeks.  Both asked for our prayers.  They have them. 

One of those deaths was from flooding in Dar es Salaam.  The family had to first gather to find her body among other families suffering likewise.  Then they could bury her.

This reminds me of death in the woods at home.  One young man died.  Loggers were denied evacuation.  The family and friends climbed up and into the setting before nightfall to build fires and stand watch against predation until morning when Father, Uncle, Brother and friends were able to bring the deceased young man down off the mountain and home.

We have been trained well for this place and this work.  We didn’t know. 

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Last Saturday, a bunch of my former classmates rented a large bus and a small bus and took us both along to yet another orphanage on the way to Kilimanjaro.  This one around a Pentacostal Mchungaji and Mama Mchungaji.  We literally arrived in time.  The facility is beautiful.  The food was all gone and had been for two days.  The children had been fasting and eating only a light supper.  We arrived as a group from a Lutheran University packing in sacks of supplies and this living grandmother just sat there with tears running down her face.

She opened the larder and showed us the completely empty shelves as we packed the supplies inside.

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Still working the problem that we think will likely see us heading home to America in a couple to few months.  We are doing the best we can.  We are able because of God.  God is listening to each of you.

You who read and pray and suffer along with us.  Please believe what we get to see.  Thank you for praying our strength and guidance for each moment with each face.   Folks like you are beyond precious.  vwilliamson@sprynet.com

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Really blessed while deeply under attack..  all of it is spiritual..  I wish I could teach that to everyone so they could truly know it.  I didn’t know it for far too long. 

Please keep crumpling us up and throwing us at God.  That is where we need to be.  God will sort us out.

One day at a time.  Just like how you each live.  Just one day at a time. 

Thank you, each of you.

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What to Pray for:

Our armed forces families, our leadership, our people, whole world round, all of Gods kids -

All the tough and blessing expressed above –

The love of folks –

Whatever is on your hearts and minds for us –

For our children and grand-children who miss us.. 

For Makumira Secondary School looking to share stories and partner in some way with a foreign school, Great leaders, teachers, students, programs, strong backs, minds, and hearts –

For our health to stay ahead of whatever is before us –

For those who have braved the donate button to discover Kajun Crofton, our daughter who helps getting each one of your donations to us and every blogpost to where you can read it -

For each and every one of you –

Each and every one of your prayers, your precious conversations with God –

Prayers, Your Prayer, Even your groaning prayers makes all the difference..

Vern W

May life be as Music to your Heart – May Music be as Heart to your Life – May Heart be as Life to your Music

Thursday, January 18, 2024

 Dear Cherished Interested’s,                                                                                         January 18th, 2024

Still, they find me.  He wanted a job.  I don’t have those.  I asked this young man to look at me.  I asked him to see how old I am.  I told him whatever he is facing, God is with him.  I told him to never give up but stay in conversation with God so every step can be taken without knowing how or where. 

Focus on the who.

I am concerned about you who read and pray for us.  Please sit.  Please be willing to suspend any disbelief. 

What I am about to tell you is unbelievable.

Since last writing huge bad news has been trusted to us.  Details are not anything I want to put in writing anywhere.  A certain vagueness is necessary to protect even those who may not be deserving of that protection.  I am not supposed to judge.  In all things I am to be thankful.  Sometimes that is very hard.

I removed myself from University enrollment. 

It came to our attention, after receiving an unexpected bill, that the process that resulted in me becoming a member of the student body likely included payments to people.  Payments never intended to see the light of day.  That means that my enrollment was by extra-scriptural means.

Extra-scriptural is the strictest bar and is what kept me going until the University was no longer directly responsible for me in any way.  I saw my academic advisor, then the Dean, and turned in my student ID. 

Yes, this is devastatingly difficult.  However, striving after obedience has kept my feet and the rest of me going through discovery and as careful as possible management so far of this problem.  A problem made by people instructed NOT to follow extra-scriptural, if traditional, means.  People who love me enough to have worked at this for two years. 

This is also a North American problem and not just a problem here.    

It is a complicated mess requiring me to take a one year deferred enrollment and leave the student body.  After striving to witness through this mess.  After striving to teach through this mess.  We have decisions to make.

Will we still be able to afford staying on?  Please pray that the peace God has already provided to us, as affirmation to having to walk away from classes no matter how hard, includes obvious discernment on this front too.     

Please also pray for those who chose to help, in spite of the mess.

Please pray for my entire class.  All 35 Bachelor of Divinity students who so openly took me as their own.  Also please pray for the entire freshman class of the university, many hundreds, who have seen me before them teaching them, as one of them, either by intent by presentation, being singled out by lecturers, or by answering questions for the group posed by lecturers. 

Please pray for my professors.  No one has wanted me to leave.  Everyone has been praying and trying to figure out a way that affords appropriate scruples and remaining steadfast to scripture.  One professor came to the house with her son to sit with us, demanding to know what is going on, and pray with us after communicating her depth of sorrow and desire that God make a way forward that gets her student back. 

Watching hearts and seeing things grow:

That professor that came to be with us is a Maasai Daughter, now mother of four, and Professor at a University known from Germany to North America.  Lutheran readers need only look at the worship book in your pew to find music there written right here at this University, in Tanzania.

Why is that a huge thing?  Twenty years ago I served for an eye-blink amount of time at the Maasai Girls Lutheran Secondary School in Monduli Tanzania.  A school that plants seeds of change into a people group with gender based roles and traditions that until, seemingly yesterday, denied much education to their daughters. 

Two of my professors were Maasai daughters, now grown women and mothers serving the church here as University Lecturers and Pastors.

I got to see that!

The best part of the University is the class of Bachelor of Divinity Students from around the country.  The Holy Spirit so alive in each that they responded to its prompting to come pray for me those desperate hours and days before I was able to decline active enrollment and be gone from campus.   This without knowing anything about what was wrong. 

I got to see that!

Many from that class of theology students came to the house Saturday.  They came to help Hilda to celebrate my birthday.  After filling them with cake and soda, I had to tell them why they were not seeing me in class with them.  And why they would no longer be seeing me in class with them.  Even the Maasai man I was taking classes with wept openly in front of women and people from other tribes.  In our over-populated living-room.

I got to see that!

Today while collecting pharmaceuticals brought to a close secondary school by our pharmacist, we got lectured yet again.  We got lectured yet again by our Islamic son, his father died this last year, who insists that somehow I will find a job that allows us to stay.  He is one of the team of Islamic medical professionals who gathered after Friday prayers at the Mosque in town to put their heads together to keep Hilda alive and recovering, just a few months back.

I got to see that!

There are in fact too many things we get to see because we dare to come and try to plant the seeds or ourselves as God’s children without fear of dying.  A seed has to die in order for anything to grow. 

This is unbelievable.  We are at peace most of the time within our spirits even as our bodies do reflect the consequences of deep stress and suffering of loss.  Still we strive to focus on the who.

The who is Jesus.  The who is you.

You who read and pray and suffer along with us.  Please believe what we get to see.  Thank you for praying our strength and guidance for each moment with each face.   Folks like you are beyond precious.  vwilliamson@sprynet.com

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Really blessed while deeply under attack..  all of it is spiritual..  I wish I could teach that to everyone so they could truly know it.  I didn’t know it for far too long. 

Please keep crumpling us up and throwing us at God.  That is where we need to be.  God will sort us out.

One day at a time.  Just like how you each live.  Just one day at a time. 

Thank you, each of you.

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What to Pray for:

Our armed forces families, our leadership, our people, whole world round, all of Gods kids -

All the tough and blessing expressed above –

The love of folks –

Whatever is on your hearts and minds for us –

For our children and grand-children who miss us.. 

For Makumira Secondary School looking to share stories and partner in some way with a foreign school, Great leaders, teachers, students, programs, strong backs, minds, and hearts –

For our health to stay ahead of whatever is before us –

For those who have braved the donate button to discover Kajun Crofton, our daughter who helps getting each one of your donations to us and every blogpost to where you can read it -

For each and every one of you –

Each and every one of your prayers, your precious conversations with God –

Prayers, Your Prayer, Even your groaning prayers makes all the difference..

Vern W

May life be as Music to your Heart – May Music be as Heart to your Life – May Heart be as Life to your Music

Monday, January 1, 2024

 Dear Cherished Interested’s,                                                                                         January 1st, 2024

Happy New Year.. 

Photographic evidence of paperwork proving a Student Visa has been issued to me from the Tanzanian Government for a couple of years has arrived by phone during Christmas break.  It was sent on to the University who is in trouble if such things are not in order when immigration comes looking.  Hoping to get our passports back in the next couple weeks.  We were required to surrender them.  I know, I know..  

This is not our country.  Our rules and ways don’t apply.  Still.. THANK YOU for Lifting us up in this regard, you did it!

             

It is too late for 2023 and more importantly you know we cannot give any tax paperwork out.  There is no matching giving program. 

If, however, The Spirit is poking you and you want to tell us or ask us anything, we are where a little can literally save a life.  Share that to others who give regardless of taxes.  Folks like you are beyond precious.  vwilliamson@sprynet.com

Happy to respond about anything when we can.

Hilda got local church calendars for all 36 of us first year Bachelor of Divinity (BD1) students.  Gathering for classes tomorrow should be today, though, I remember being young and being a nearly last minute arrival over the years.

Transportation is an automatic point of grace here.  The roadways are extremely hazardous yet the only source of mass transit.  The only marginally affordable way of getting around is busses of differing sizes corresponding with distance travelled.  Although significantly better than 20 years ago when smoking and burning brakes was a fairly common sight along with riders all over the outside of vehicles, maintenance and repair are still an issue.  Outside riders, except for manual laborers, are nearly no more.  People get where they go when they get there, but almost all are carried on the inside now.

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We have been hunkered down.  Letting the world go by.  Poking our head out only to leave my tenuous Greek studies to collect supplies. 

Still, they find me.  The last week of school before break in the midst of testing a young man came and spoke to me about his family having nothing (likely true).  He spoke with me about not having all his school fees (likely true).  He wanted a job.  I don’t have those. 

I can’t have his school fees either.  I explained that each member of this older couple has worked over 50 years and have very little to show for it.  That in order to come here and try we had to sell up, just about everything, and come.  But for you –all we are most significantly on our own, there is no sending agency, no official group walking alongside us. 

I asked this young man to look at me.  I asked him to see how old I am.  This grandfather of six has worked over 50 years and not until now, and not until here, and not by anything but God’s effort alone have I finally come to where I am able to attend University.

I told him whatever he is facing, God is with him.  I told him to never give up but stay in conversation with God so every step can be taken without knowing how or where.  Focus on the who.  If his family is starving and he cannot find his school fees, perhaps he is right.  Perhaps he needs to find a job if that is possible.  If that is only by walking out the University Gate, then follow his feet and trust his back, hands, heart, head and the one who truly is walking alongside all of us.   

Cherished interested, I know scripture.  We are to clothe and feed.  Those are deeper things than fabric and nutrition.  We have poured our resources out into lives here, and still are.

Only we cannot set them up for dependency, true.  We cannot set ourselves up for dependency, true.  We cannot let even the desperate use us continuously, true.  We cannot let the manipulative milk us dry.  None of those things are good for anyone. 

We can do no good in any way if we have to leave with one-way-tickets to come home and start over.  Even if that would be the sensible thing, the comfortable thing.  Hilda and I do not have that habit.  It is not part of our life training.  That is part of why we are approachable here.  We really do listen.  We do not understand all, but we do understand much. 

Your prayers help ..  They help them to find us .. They help us to do what we can even if that is to say no.  No as our hearts explode inside us.  We’ve lived too long and with eyes open to not understand much.  Thank you for praying our strength and guidance for each moment with each face.

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Christmas Eve and today I got to walk around campus and find those invisible people. The security people.  Some wanted soda, which I do not have, and God helped make a joke of that.  What I got paid when I was 18 to work security would be a boon for any family with a guard in the home.  Not the case here.  Locals get paid wretchedly.  Guards here pick up sticks while patrolling to build little fires to heat water for tea.  That may be all they have for however many hours or days they are on duty.

Christmas Eve I had juices to hand out.  Today I did not.  Today I have a cough and full on cold but still got around to hand out left over messages from yesterday and the message written for today. 

This insistence of the feet to walk and take sheets of paper with words in two language to people who are hungry and thirsty I do not fully understand.  Yet, each and every face across campus was smiling and grateful. 

That must be your prayers  too..  Great work!

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Christmas day we were with little ones and their parents and grandparents up on the mountain with a family who insisted we come.   We ate delicious local food and were also blessed to have spoons to use.  We were able to take some sacks of supplies so there would be food left to prepare after we left. 

Yes, the poorest will give everything they have away and eat faith if that is all there is.  Hilda and I see and find these ones to be the foundation of why we are here.  NO one at this meal asked us for anything.  They just told us how happy they were that we came.

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Hilda did everything at The Children’s Village Yesterday.  I waited and coughed in the truck, teenage girls coming back from church taking my hand through the window to hold while scolding me for not being in service with them. 

We are a different paradigm here.  We are the blessed white faces that are trusted by the best hearts to take the truth, any of the truth, good or bad, happy or sad, or mad, or disappointed.  No performances necessary for Bibi na Babu. 

Sunday before we were at The Cathedral.  The local Pastors who have done so much to help us find affordable have also been leaving me alone to my studies.  Kindness.  

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Really blessed while deeply under attack..  all of it is spiritual..  I wish I could teach that to everyone so they could truly know it.  I didn’t know it for far too long. 

Relationships here on the ground in addition to my imperfections and mistakes are being used to try to drive us away from our striving.  Each day is a sincere struggle.  Hopefully that means we’re on the right track.  Please pray for those around us.  Please pray for the local faces which fearlessly now smile and greet us as we walk.  

Please keep crumpling us up and throwing us at God.  That is where we need to be.  God will sort us out.

One day at a time.  Just like how you each live.  Just one day at a time. 

Thank you, each of you.

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What to Pray for:

Our armed forces families, our leadership, our people, whole world round, all of Gods kids -

All the tough and blessing expressed above –

The love of folks –

Whatever is on your hearts and minds for us –

For our children and grand-children who miss us.. 

For Makumira Secondary School looking to share stories and partner in some way with a foreign school, Great leaders, teachers, students, programs, strong backs, minds, and hearts –

For our health to stay ahead of whatever is before us –

For those who have braved the donate button to discover Kajun Crofton, our daughter who helps getting each one of your donations to us and every blogpost to where you can read it -

For each and every one of you –

Each and every one of your prayers, your precious conversations with God –

Prayers, Your Prayer, Even your groaning prayers makes all the difference..

Vern W

May life be as Music to your Heart – May Music be as Heart to your Life – May Heart be as Life to your Music

  Dear Cherished Interested’s,                                                                             December 30 th 2024 Hilda and ...